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Sonia's poems
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My poems :
Ruins Of Roses:
Here I stand, In the middle
Of the ruins of roses
Everything beautiful,
Is dead and gone
Every memory, faded
Life and death and separated
By a very fine line
The same line
That divides me
Somewhere in my mind
If you aren't here
I'm a ghost, I walk all alone.
No one will see,The tears I cry.
They are hidden
By the pain in my eyes
All i posses,Is one last breath
As I stand, In the ruins of roses.
My poems :
Ruins Of Roses:
Here I stand, In the middle
Of the ruins of roses
Everything beautiful,
Is dead and gone
Every memory, faded
Life and death and separated
By a very fine line
The same line
That divides me
Somewhere in my mind
If you aren't here
I'm a ghost, I walk all alone.
No one will see,The tears I cry.
They are hidden
By the pain in my eyes
All i posses,Is one last breath
As I stand, In the ruins of roses.
Last edited by ¡sonia! on Wed Aug 01, 2012 10:15 am; edited 1 time in total
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Re: Sonia's poems
The sun is setting once again
Her prince hasn't come to save her
She's pacing up and down her tower
She recalls things said by her mother
Although nothing seems to be true
She still believes in "me and you"
She holds on so tight to her faith
And swears it's the only thing
They can never ever take away
She stares out the window
Feeling like she's already a widow
No one seems to care about her
She'll let the silence suffocate her
But no one will ever break her
More than she's done to herself
She doesn't want to cry for help
Because her cries will be met by
The mocking words of passerby's
She remembers how fairy tails
Seemed to be her reality
Now all she has is a memory
Of when so much was perfect
And now she's her own defect.
Her prince hasn't come to save her
She's pacing up and down her tower
She recalls things said by her mother
Although nothing seems to be true
She still believes in "me and you"
She holds on so tight to her faith
And swears it's the only thing
They can never ever take away
She stares out the window
Feeling like she's already a widow
No one seems to care about her
She'll let the silence suffocate her
But no one will ever break her
More than she's done to herself
She doesn't want to cry for help
Because her cries will be met by
The mocking words of passerby's
She remembers how fairy tails
Seemed to be her reality
Now all she has is a memory
Of when so much was perfect
And now she's her own defect.
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Re: Sonia's poems
I'm the person everyone sees
And the person no one knows
Living I'm complete shelter
And a lost home
A completely honest liar
Who's clod heart is set on fire
A disaster,with a fake smile mastered
In the asylum of destruction
In the space between sane and neurotic
Drawing the line between perfect and psychotic
In a reality I've abandoned
I see who've abandoned me
In the darkness and the blue sea
The waves crash all around me
Nothing can touch me
If I'm so indifferent to what I see
Making a final attempt to live
Trying so hard to forgive
Those who'll never forgive me
For choosing isolation
Over the passive aggression.
And the person no one knows
Living I'm complete shelter
And a lost home
A completely honest liar
Who's clod heart is set on fire
A disaster,with a fake smile mastered
In the asylum of destruction
In the space between sane and neurotic
Drawing the line between perfect and psychotic
In a reality I've abandoned
I see who've abandoned me
In the darkness and the blue sea
The waves crash all around me
Nothing can touch me
If I'm so indifferent to what I see
Making a final attempt to live
Trying so hard to forgive
Those who'll never forgive me
For choosing isolation
Over the passive aggression.
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Re: Sonia's poems
I'll attempt to smile
But it seems defiled
I'll attempt to dream
But it's a hollow scream
If I tried to lift my hopes
They'd let me down
Like you had before
Before you turned around
You walk away, when you feel
Like none of this is real
It's my turn to run away
But you wouldn't let me
I try to live, and let die
But everything's a reason to cry
The stars seem to stain the sky
And this life won't go by
Without a fight
For our own right
We fail to see the obvious
That no one ever survives
The most valuable curse.
But it seems defiled
I'll attempt to dream
But it's a hollow scream
If I tried to lift my hopes
They'd let me down
Like you had before
Before you turned around
You walk away, when you feel
Like none of this is real
It's my turn to run away
But you wouldn't let me
I try to live, and let die
But everything's a reason to cry
The stars seem to stain the sky
And this life won't go by
Without a fight
For our own right
We fail to see the obvious
That no one ever survives
The most valuable curse.
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Re: Sonia's poems
Have you ever tried to forget
Your numerous regrets?
Are you trying as hard as you claim
To have a day that's not the same,
As the previous perilous hour
When you sought to seek cover,
From all their judgemental stares
From their hypocritical glares.
You're certain that you're broken
And that all hope is forsaken,
But you often fail to see
That this is the life you've chosen.
You smile to hide the misery
That follows every reality,
But you never attempt to see
The hidden beauty in me.
Optimism is just a memory,
That's been erased by reality.
You drown in your own tears
Amused by the irony of fears,
You know you couldn't live like this
But if you gave up,
There's so much you'll miss.
Your numerous regrets?
Are you trying as hard as you claim
To have a day that's not the same,
As the previous perilous hour
When you sought to seek cover,
From all their judgemental stares
From their hypocritical glares.
You're certain that you're broken
And that all hope is forsaken,
But you often fail to see
That this is the life you've chosen.
You smile to hide the misery
That follows every reality,
But you never attempt to see
The hidden beauty in me.
Optimism is just a memory,
That's been erased by reality.
You drown in your own tears
Amused by the irony of fears,
You know you couldn't live like this
But if you gave up,
There's so much you'll miss.
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Re: Sonia's poems
Your smile is my salvation
The reason for every emotion
For my hearts elation
And this romantic notion
This long lost realisation
That sadly, I'd forgotten
In my personal distortion,
Mission for self destruction
You bring me to life
Every time I die inside
You teach me why
I shouldn't sit and cry
I need you in my life
More than I've need anything
More than I've wanted anyone
Could you learn to love me
The way I love you?
Could my smile be your salvation
The reason for your emotions
For your hearts elation.
The reason for every emotion
For my hearts elation
And this romantic notion
This long lost realisation
That sadly, I'd forgotten
In my personal distortion,
Mission for self destruction
You bring me to life
Every time I die inside
You teach me why
I shouldn't sit and cry
I need you in my life
More than I've need anything
More than I've wanted anyone
Could you learn to love me
The way I love you?
Could my smile be your salvation
The reason for your emotions
For your hearts elation.
¡sonia!- Mod
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Re: Sonia's poems
I'd like to take a step back
Just to breath, just to forget
The various things I regret
Like the time I waste dreaming
Looking for something to believe in
When I could be living
For someone like you
Believing in a love that's true
Time couldn't change how I feel
Nothing can alter what's real
I've felt this way for the first time
In an entire lifetime
I was on the verge of giving up
Believing I have no luck
But you take my doubt away
Replace it with wonderful faith
That I know will never sway
Help me see the day
That will heal me in every way
A day that I'll remember forever
The day I learn, that this is real
Just to breath, just to forget
The various things I regret
Like the time I waste dreaming
Looking for something to believe in
When I could be living
For someone like you
Believing in a love that's true
Time couldn't change how I feel
Nothing can alter what's real
I've felt this way for the first time
In an entire lifetime
I was on the verge of giving up
Believing I have no luck
But you take my doubt away
Replace it with wonderful faith
That I know will never sway
Help me see the day
That will heal me in every way
A day that I'll remember forever
The day I learn, that this is real
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I try so hard to forget
But I know I'll regret
All the time I waste
And now I'm in a haste
To find you, to tell you
The one thing that's true
But words will never do justice
To how much I love you
My thoughts are a vague representation
Of my myriad emotions
My actions can't show
What my heart knows
All the things I plan to say
Won't help re-live the day
We first met, the day I knew
That love was finally true
I found what money can't buy
In your heart, in your eyes
I write these words
But waste so much time
Because they can never
Compare to how I love you
A love that's forever,
Something that's finally true.
But I know I'll regret
All the time I waste
And now I'm in a haste
To find you, to tell you
The one thing that's true
But words will never do justice
To how much I love you
My thoughts are a vague representation
Of my myriad emotions
My actions can't show
What my heart knows
All the things I plan to say
Won't help re-live the day
We first met, the day I knew
That love was finally true
I found what money can't buy
In your heart, in your eyes
I write these words
But waste so much time
Because they can never
Compare to how I love you
A love that's forever,
Something that's finally true.
¡sonia!- Mod
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Re: Sonia's poems
Do you close your eyes,
Just to feel like you've escaped
The most torturous fate.
Do you hide yourself away,
To remind yourself of the truth
That you're reality's renegade.
Even though you seek therapy,
You're no better than your worst enemy
Because you judge yourself
Before you give yourself,
The chance you deserve,
To escape this misery.
Do you lock your heart away
Because it's fragile enough to break
With a simple touch of lust,
When your dreams are already dust
You have nothing left to lose.
You needn't be afraid
Of the life you choose.
........
I know imperfection, I know what I am
And the two definitions, seem to match.
I can't let my heart refrain
As I replace numbness with pain.
I can't let everything hurt me
As I replace memories with reality.
I'm tired of being afraid
But I don't know any other way
To live this life without losing my head.
You make me feel insecure
Just to feel like you have power,
And I let you hurt me
Convincing myself I'll be stronger,
I've never felt this way
Because I've refused to feel
Anything that was remotely real.
But I can't hold on to the past
And everything that was meant to last.
While reality wounds me
My dreams have sheltered me
To help me live and to believe
..........
I'm holding on to anything that makes sense
I'm holding on to my defence
All you do is render me worthless
And you'll never know how much it hurts
To be the one, forever lost
The one seeking truth no matter what the cost
On the edge of the world
Seeking redemption and survival
On the edge of reality
Looking for somewhere to be
Looking for a place to feel
Like faith is finally real
You won't know how this goes
Because you're the one who hurts me
You won't know how hard it is
To try and set yourself free
To fight a demon you've fostered
To overcome your soul surrendered
You've surrendered to the past
And the future cannot last
Just to feel like you've escaped
The most torturous fate.
Do you hide yourself away,
To remind yourself of the truth
That you're reality's renegade.
Even though you seek therapy,
You're no better than your worst enemy
Because you judge yourself
Before you give yourself,
The chance you deserve,
To escape this misery.
Do you lock your heart away
Because it's fragile enough to break
With a simple touch of lust,
When your dreams are already dust
You have nothing left to lose.
You needn't be afraid
Of the life you choose.
........
I know imperfection, I know what I am
And the two definitions, seem to match.
I can't let my heart refrain
As I replace numbness with pain.
I can't let everything hurt me
As I replace memories with reality.
I'm tired of being afraid
But I don't know any other way
To live this life without losing my head.
You make me feel insecure
Just to feel like you have power,
And I let you hurt me
Convincing myself I'll be stronger,
I've never felt this way
Because I've refused to feel
Anything that was remotely real.
But I can't hold on to the past
And everything that was meant to last.
While reality wounds me
My dreams have sheltered me
To help me live and to believe
..........
I'm holding on to anything that makes sense
I'm holding on to my defence
All you do is render me worthless
And you'll never know how much it hurts
To be the one, forever lost
The one seeking truth no matter what the cost
On the edge of the world
Seeking redemption and survival
On the edge of reality
Looking for somewhere to be
Looking for a place to feel
Like faith is finally real
You won't know how this goes
Because you're the one who hurts me
You won't know how hard it is
To try and set yourself free
To fight a demon you've fostered
To overcome your soul surrendered
You've surrendered to the past
And the future cannot last
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Re: Sonia's poems
You're a slave to empty emotions
You're a slave to your engineered dilution
You're an architect of self destruction
And your actions have lost passion.
You wait there, willing to be abducted
By any worthless feeling
Willing to let yourself be tortured
By all the pain you're feeling.
You won't let yourself be reminded
Of all the things you've lost
Because that only leaves you blinded
Lost in thoughts of a better past.
You're the demon you cannot escape
When you're looking for a better fate
You're the monster you fear
When you hold on to anything dear.
You won't let yourself win this fight
Because you don't know what's right
You seek comfort in the strangest places
And care, in the most devious faces.
If you could end this, I know you would
But we spend our lives,
Thinking of everything we could.
.........
The Devil's an old friend
Who never really cared
If I was alive
Or nearly dead
His love, forsaken
Helped me find home
And when I was broken
He made me feel strong.
The Devil's a close friend
Because he's the only one
Who'll tell me where to hide
When everyone has a gun.
He's the only one
Who could ever be
Half as cynical as me.
I'm starting to realise
How stupid I've been
And it's all because of him.
I'm starting to realise
The mistakes I've made
And he won't let it fade.
If only I knew him
As well as he knew me,
He's the life
In my heart, that beats.
.........
Hanging on by a thread
The meeting point of both ends
Where personal passion
Turns into self destruction
I'm drowning in my teas
And trying to fight the fears
The always get the better of me
That tell me what I can't be.
I want to throw all this away
And hope to start a new day
One where you don't matter at all
So you couldn't make me fall
I don't want to feel this way
Like this feeling is the price pay
I know you stand for nothing
And you have made me be
All that you can never see
You stole my heart
And smashed it like glass
You took all my love
And let it rust
All these emotions are worth,
Less than dust
Do you care, that I don't
Do you know, that you haunt
Do you enjoy, what you do
Is all this worth, having you
You're a slave to your engineered dilution
You're an architect of self destruction
And your actions have lost passion.
You wait there, willing to be abducted
By any worthless feeling
Willing to let yourself be tortured
By all the pain you're feeling.
You won't let yourself be reminded
Of all the things you've lost
Because that only leaves you blinded
Lost in thoughts of a better past.
You're the demon you cannot escape
When you're looking for a better fate
You're the monster you fear
When you hold on to anything dear.
You won't let yourself win this fight
Because you don't know what's right
You seek comfort in the strangest places
And care, in the most devious faces.
If you could end this, I know you would
But we spend our lives,
Thinking of everything we could.
.........
The Devil's an old friend
Who never really cared
If I was alive
Or nearly dead
His love, forsaken
Helped me find home
And when I was broken
He made me feel strong.
The Devil's a close friend
Because he's the only one
Who'll tell me where to hide
When everyone has a gun.
He's the only one
Who could ever be
Half as cynical as me.
I'm starting to realise
How stupid I've been
And it's all because of him.
I'm starting to realise
The mistakes I've made
And he won't let it fade.
If only I knew him
As well as he knew me,
He's the life
In my heart, that beats.
.........
Hanging on by a thread
The meeting point of both ends
Where personal passion
Turns into self destruction
I'm drowning in my teas
And trying to fight the fears
The always get the better of me
That tell me what I can't be.
I want to throw all this away
And hope to start a new day
One where you don't matter at all
So you couldn't make me fall
I don't want to feel this way
Like this feeling is the price pay
I know you stand for nothing
And you have made me be
All that you can never see
You stole my heart
And smashed it like glass
You took all my love
And let it rust
All these emotions are worth,
Less than dust
Do you care, that I don't
Do you know, that you haunt
Do you enjoy, what you do
Is all this worth, having you
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She wears her smile,
Like her armour
She cannot wait
To find her saviour
Locked in her tower
With no way out
She feels nothing,
Except doubt.
Her vivid imagination
Tells her who to be
Her fantasies whisper,
Someday she'll be free
She makes no effort
To slay the dragon herself
She does what she does best
And continues to cry for help
She once ruled a kingdom
But now can't conquer a heart
She once was the star
But now has no part
Her prince isn't coming
He doesn't know she's waiting
Sometimes fair tales are nicest
When they never even start
.........
My patience is wearing thin
I'm starting to feel hell within
Every last word you say
Is another nail in my coffin
You're the recurring pain
That I feel in my brain
You're the blade the cuts me
That doesn't let me be free
You're the shackles
That hold me back
Yours is the life
That puts me off track
I could run and hide
But I see your shadow behind my back
Hold a dagger, waiting
To be called a backstabber
I could tell you what's on my mind
But there are no words I can find
To let you know how you torture me
By not letting me be who I want to be
My blood's boiling and my hearts exploding
I don't have anyone to save me
I don't know why I live,
And you aren't helping
Like her armour
She cannot wait
To find her saviour
Locked in her tower
With no way out
She feels nothing,
Except doubt.
Her vivid imagination
Tells her who to be
Her fantasies whisper,
Someday she'll be free
She makes no effort
To slay the dragon herself
She does what she does best
And continues to cry for help
She once ruled a kingdom
But now can't conquer a heart
She once was the star
But now has no part
Her prince isn't coming
He doesn't know she's waiting
Sometimes fair tales are nicest
When they never even start
.........
My patience is wearing thin
I'm starting to feel hell within
Every last word you say
Is another nail in my coffin
You're the recurring pain
That I feel in my brain
You're the blade the cuts me
That doesn't let me be free
You're the shackles
That hold me back
Yours is the life
That puts me off track
I could run and hide
But I see your shadow behind my back
Hold a dagger, waiting
To be called a backstabber
I could tell you what's on my mind
But there are no words I can find
To let you know how you torture me
By not letting me be who I want to be
My blood's boiling and my hearts exploding
I don't have anyone to save me
I don't know why I live,
And you aren't helping
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Locked out of the safest home,
You have no place to call your own,
Alone and broken, you shall rome
In search for a secure road
Where you can run, instead of walk
And then fly, instead of fall
Where your feet won't bleed
And you'll play no heed
To everyone's perennial greed
So sick of bleeding,
Miserable from lacking feeling
You're looking up while falling down
You're royalty who's lost the crown
There's no place to hide
In a land of no rules to abide
Your smile had faded into the wrinkles
Because your love has turned so fickle
.......
You gave me red roses
And I gave you a noose
We fell in love
Because we had nothing to lose
But you're giving me a hard time
And I'm testing your patience
It seems we had no time
For futile relations
We're as sick of each other
As we were of the world
We have no shelter
From the storms that unravel
We were stupid to think
We'd ever be perfect
I was stupid to think
Anyone was ever worth it
Do you see these cuts?
And these bruises?
Do they remind you of our choices?
The mistakes we made,
In the name of memories
The light that fades,
In the arms of eternity.
You have no place to call your own,
Alone and broken, you shall rome
In search for a secure road
Where you can run, instead of walk
And then fly, instead of fall
Where your feet won't bleed
And you'll play no heed
To everyone's perennial greed
So sick of bleeding,
Miserable from lacking feeling
You're looking up while falling down
You're royalty who's lost the crown
There's no place to hide
In a land of no rules to abide
Your smile had faded into the wrinkles
Because your love has turned so fickle
.......
You gave me red roses
And I gave you a noose
We fell in love
Because we had nothing to lose
But you're giving me a hard time
And I'm testing your patience
It seems we had no time
For futile relations
We're as sick of each other
As we were of the world
We have no shelter
From the storms that unravel
We were stupid to think
We'd ever be perfect
I was stupid to think
Anyone was ever worth it
Do you see these cuts?
And these bruises?
Do they remind you of our choices?
The mistakes we made,
In the name of memories
The light that fades,
In the arms of eternity.
¡sonia!- Mod
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Re: Sonia's poems
I sit in the corner, waiting for you to break
Now I know what it's like to be you, to be fake.
I stand in the centre, craving your attention
But all I feel is irrelevant tension.
Do you ever realise, you do nothing at all?
And yet, when I see you, I feel myself fall
For every trick, I worship every lie
I forget to pick myself up, that's the reason I cry.
I idolise your manipulative ways,
Because I know you've numbered my days.
It's only a matter of time, until, again
I'll be on my knees, while you simply offend
My shallow existence, my lack of resistance
Towards your everlasting narcism.
Did you burn the letters I wrote,
Has my patience and care gone up in smoke?
Have you discarded the roses I gave you,
Because the thorns still bare my blood?
I'd cut myself a thousand times,
Just so I could forget I feel such intense love.
Now I know what it's like to be you, to be fake.
I stand in the centre, craving your attention
But all I feel is irrelevant tension.
Do you ever realise, you do nothing at all?
And yet, when I see you, I feel myself fall
For every trick, I worship every lie
I forget to pick myself up, that's the reason I cry.
I idolise your manipulative ways,
Because I know you've numbered my days.
It's only a matter of time, until, again
I'll be on my knees, while you simply offend
My shallow existence, my lack of resistance
Towards your everlasting narcism.
Did you burn the letters I wrote,
Has my patience and care gone up in smoke?
Have you discarded the roses I gave you,
Because the thorns still bare my blood?
I'd cut myself a thousand times,
Just so I could forget I feel such intense love.
¡sonia!- Mod
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Age : 26
Join date : 2012-03-08
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