Sonia's poems

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My poems :

Ruins Of Roses:

Here I stand, In the middle
Of the ruins of roses
Everything beautiful,
Is dead and gone
Every memory, faded
Life and death and separated 
By a very fine line
The same line 
That divides me
Somewhere in my mind
If you aren't here 
I'm a ghost, I walk all alone.
No one will see,The tears I cry.
They are hidden 
By the pain in my eyes
All i posses,Is one last breath
As I stand, In the ruins of roses.

Splasher wrote:I think I've given you about 3 quarters of your rep. just in this thread

Thanks

The distance hurts 
When you're all I need to heal 
To heal all the scars of the past
And all the wounds of right now
Close your eyes and open your heart
Let me show you what you mean to me
You're everything, you're all the things 
I see in my dreams, in my fake reality 
You're perfect, you're an angel, 
I need you now more than before 
To show me that this is my dream 
And dreams come true
When you don't expect them to
I love you, I've never felt the need 
To need anybody, but with you, 
It comes naturally, the desire for you
And all the love in me, made for you 
I can't lie about my heart, 
There's nothing I've wanted more than you
Right from the start 

This misery is uncalled for 
This pain is unintentional 
I need you to understand 
That I am merely human 
To me perfection is a lost cause 
Because it's what I never was
I don't want to give up
I don't want you to give up on me
All I've done until now is a mistake
It's something I cannot erase
I've tried so hard to make you see
To forget the pain and see me
Bur you're so self absorbed 
I prefer to be self opinionated 
And have no one matter to me
But I need your faith, your love
To make me realise what I can't see
To make me realise how you see me

Every moment I spend without you 
Reminds me of what I am to do
The next time I see you,
Tell you that I love you
But my heart stops beating 
And I give up breathing 
All the words I know
Couldn't phrase how I really feel
Because these feelings are too real
To ever be expressed 
Simply by words and everything in me
I can't say what you already know
I can't say what I can't show
But you're my motivation for everyday 
You're everything, there's nothing I want more
Without you I'd be lost
I never want to lose you 
But I'm running out of time
To tell you what I'm sure you knew
Right now I'm numb 
Staring right at you 
I should say those three words 
But I can't verbalise
How much I love you 

Cry

Sit here, dry my tears, all I do now is cry
as I stare at the sky, once my limit
Now my dream, now the only place 
Left for me to scream
Scream at my fears, scream at my hopes
Cry into isolation, my home, 
I promise I'll never leave you
I promise I'll never go looking for what isn't there 
I promise I won't make the same mistakes 
And try to hold on to the invisible 
Let me fade, into what I've made 
A little home, in a world no one knows
I place I don't know, save me 
That's all you can do, because I'm in too deep
And I can't save myself, I can't save you 
Save me, before you go,
Tell me that you need me,
Because I need to be needed, 
And right now I need someone like you 

I'm giving you all my love
I'm giving you everything 
I've sworn I'll never trust 
But with you that's in the past
I want to let the suffering go
And I just want you to know
That even though I don't say it
The things I feel are amazing 
I never though I'd love 
The way I love you
But everything about you
Is what I'll never get if I give up
I don't want to let you go
Although from where I stand it's an option 
I could choose the easy way out
And life a life of complete doubt
Wondering how it would have been 
If I had just said three words 
But you paralyse me,
Can't you say them first
No matter what comes between 
Even if you part from me
I'll never let you out of my heart 
I'm willing to make your love a memory
So when I'm weak, like I am right now 
I'll still promise to love you, 
Please love me. 

You're the hope in the misery 
You're all the things I'll never be
You're the light in the darkest night 
You're the reason I still fight 
To hold on against the tide
That swallows me whole
Every time I look away
Every moment I don't have you 
Is a moment I'm weakened
I was never to be 
Attached to anybody 
But this life is impossible alone
Its one of the many reasons 
I need you here 
One of the many reasons 
you cannot go

Long Lost:

What's a life where nothing lasts 
What's a dream of the past
What's a heart when it's broken 
What's a hope when it's over
What am I, when I'm without 
Everything that killed my doubts 
What are we, but a symbol
Of all the things we resemble
All the scars that we heal
All the thoughts we make real
All the demons we fight 
just so we can see the light 
Where'd you go, why'd you leave 
How do you expect me to see
When I'm blinded by memories
That you made here with me
Life is pointless when I can't find 
What we always had in mind 

Do you know how it is
To be the one on the outside
Looking in, looking up for hope
Looking to let this go
Do you ever try to see
How this life looks for me
in grey, black and white
A soul that dissolves at night 
And is invisible in daylight 
Do you even understand 
How it feels to try and stand 
On weakened knees
With a heart that bleeds 
And with no place to be
Do you think of me
And my misery, how you left me
Left me behind to fend for myself 
Left me drenched in tears 
Do you need me
Like I used to need you
To tell me that I'm alright 
But now I give up this fight 
A life without anyone, even you 
Is what I've become accustomed to 

On the verge of breakdown 
Looking for what can't be found 
Has always been what I do
On the verge of self destruction 
Running out of motivation 
Giving up every reason, even you
You were never here
You were everywhere 
But there for me
You've blinded me enough 
With nothing left to see
Watch me break, watch me fall
You never wanted anything else at all
Watch me cry, watch me crash
Crash and burn at my best
Watch me go, watch me show
That there was never any good in me
You never even wanted me
All you could ever see 
Was the end of me

In a life so cold, so shallow
I have tried to never let go
I have tried to hold my head up
Hold my pride
You make me want to let that go
You make it obvious 
That pain is trivial 
And I can't let it swallow me
You showed me everything I need
And now you can't ever leave 
I'd give it all, all I never had
Just to know I'll have you 
When life gets sour and bad
I can't see it getting worse 
Than it is right now
I'm losing what I haven't found 
But I found you 
I found the need to love you 
And though I can't phrase it now 
You must know, I need you now  

You smile while I burn 
I didn't know you were so shallow
You laugh as I yearn 
For a safer place to go
You were never here 
Even when I never wanted more
You've shown what's wrong here 
By never caring at all
I don't need your forgiveness
I don't nee your sympathy 
I don't need you to need me
You had me in your traps
When you held me in your arms 
You had me hanging on
You knew you'd let me fall
But covered the trap door so well
Made it look like it was my fault 
I don't need your love
I don't need your empathy 
I don't need you at all
 

You say you understand 
I doubt you even care
You've never been where
I spend every day of my life
He narrow space like a knife
Right between loneliness and denial
You'd never walk that extra mile
It's a place I find so comfortable 
It's so peaceful and disturbing 
In the same breath, it's my home
It's where I can rest
It's the one place I know
I won't have to show 
What I dint actually feel
Right there is where I'm real
I live alone
I don't want neighbours 
I dont want friends
This is how ill start and end
I'll always be "miss misery"
And no one will remember me

All the horrid things you say
Do you see how they effect my day?
How they hurt me in every way?
Do you think it will ever change
Will you end all the hate
And for once see what I can be
Over everything I can't
I wont ever be good enough 
It's a curse I'm blessed with
Because if I was perfect to you
I'd be like everyone 
It's so easy to see me flaws
To point out my mistakes, over yours 
You think it's right to call me wrong
Then say it's a lesson I must learn
Wouldn't you love to see me burn
Don't you wonder? Dont you yearn
to see what I'll become
The caterpillar that never evolved 
Swallowed up by the cocoon
The fallen angel that's choose isolation 
When will you appreciate 
That I'm different, I'm individual
And I can't ever change 

So this is the end
You don't have to pretend 
When I know what you want to say
When you know what I need to say
We can't lie to each other, or ourselves 
We have to admit that none of this was real
It was a dream we constructed to replace life
To cover up all the wounds and kill time
It was a hope we both had 
That let us fall asleep at night 
Dreaming that everything was alright
But now we're awake, with no where to go
And there's nothing either of us want more
Than to let the truth reveal itself 
And let us be comfortable saying this is the end
I won't forget everything you said
But I won't regret this decision 

sonia i love your poems, you know i do

Survivor of Violence wrote:sonia i love your poems, you know i do

Thank you Kate

Fake Smile:

You aren't doing me a favour
 by just being here
You shoot your words
Like everyones dying for your opinion 
But you cant here
How I talk about you
When I'm not staring right at you
I'm not a backstabber
But you're a liar
Youre a cheater and deceiver
You make me act judgemental
You inflict anger that isn't real
I'm sick of you
The games you play
And how you make me feel this way
I don't want you
I don't need you to say
All the things I was desperate to hear
Because now I've closed my ears
I don't want to see you
You can leave, and don't miss me
Because I'll never come back to see
How you get along without me

You wanted everyone to like you
That you forgot everyone who loved you
You wanted fake dreams to come true
Until they swallowed you
You tried so hard to get your way
You can't see the light of day
You need everyone's approval
To feel alive, to feel real
I know I'm right
I hope you're happy
With the paper castles you've built
I hope you're pleased
With all you have that isn't here
I hope you can sleep at night
Knowing you've given up on what's right
Knowing that I won't come back
Because now I have too much pride
I don't want to cry again
This, my dear, is the end

I don't want to live anymore
Bur you're the motivation 
I can't give you anymore
But I hope youre satisfied
I never wanted to believe this
But you're my life
You're the truth, you're the prize
All I Want is to see you smile
I dont want to cry
I want you to dry my tears
And tell me I'll be alright
Even though we both know it's a lie
I'll never be like you
I'll never be so true
But take me for the mess I am
And let me tell you I love you
I used to want to be alone
And cry at home
But now I want to know
How much better life could grow
Dont let me go
Don't let me fall just yet
Don't let me die right now
Because I need this life

The sky is falling down 
The Walls are crumbling all around 
You're a soul, lost and not found
You'll always just stand your ground
Everyone has hurt you
Everyone has deserted you
it's what you told them to do
Your wounds are self inflicted
All of this is your fault
Your isolation is your creation
And there's nothing you want
How far is far enough?
When you've run for so long
How deep is deep enough?
When you're buried in your thoughts
How sad is sad enough?
When you've given up all emotions 
How long will you play this game?
with your emotion, against yourself
When will you see that
You'll always be wrong
You are who you are, you created this
Dont expect it to disappear in one wish 

I know you're where
You feel beyond repair
Like on ones there 
And you feel numb
Because the pain is more
Than you've ever known
Giving up is so easy
It doesn't even feel crazy
When you're so close to the end
That it's pointless to pretend 
No one who can help 
Is let into your heart or mind
Because you're a cynic, you're blind
You dont want anyone
Because you're convinced you'll be hurt
You're convinced you'll be dirt
At the end of it all 
You know you're going to fall
Disappointment is the price you pay for hope

so depressing :( dont give up hope!

u write so much its hard to keep up! haha. thats good. keep em coming

itslikelectiveamnesia wrote:so depressing :( dont give up hope!

u write so much its hard to keep up! haha. thats good. keep em coming

Aw, thank you Clare
Tbh, my depressing poems make me feel better

Life turns around so quickly
That it literally frightens me
Love turns into hate
And an opinion into a debate
You're the only stability 
You're the shelter I see
You haven't given up on me
Like everyone else has easily
You put all your faith in me
And I never want to let you down
But the hope of holding this up
Is so much pressure,
It's bringing me down
I just need a little more help
I just need to know I'll get through this
I need you now, more than ever, 
To say that you won't let me drown
That you'll always be around
Because dreams like this
Could easily come crashing down 

Run away, hide inside and fade
That's all you do of late
Like you're trying to hide from what you made
What you've created, what you said you loved 
I can't see you anymore 
I don't even want to 
Because you've gotten lost in your thoughts 
And left me behind to cave into the lies
I want to fade, under your skin
And destroy you from within 
For all your sins, I'll make you pay
I'll make you wish you never saw this day
I'll make you cry, to be by my side
And when you fall at my feet
I'll run away, hide inside and fade
So rest your head, my dear liar
On my heart, the one you hurt 
And I'll make you happy 
As I treat you like dirt 

Sonia, you know you're awesome.
You're awesome. I love your Poems X')

¡sonia! wrote:

itslikelectiveamnesia wrote:so depressing :( dont give up hope!

u write so much its hard to keep up! haha. thats good. keep em coming

Aw, thank you Clare
Tbh, my depressing poems make me feel better

i know what u mean.

Leonie wrote:Sonia, you know you're awesome.
You're awesome. I love your Poems X')

Thanks Leo

itslikelectiveamnesia wrote:

¡sonia! wrote:

itslikelectiveamnesia wrote:so depressing :( dont give up hope!

u write so much its hard to keep up! haha. thats good. keep em coming

Aw, thank you Clare
Tbh, my depressing poems make me feel better

i know what u mean.

poetry is a great way to express emotions :')

¡sonia! wrote:

itslikelectiveamnesia wrote:

¡sonia! wrote:

itslikelectiveamnesia wrote:so depressing :( dont give up hope!

u write so much its hard to keep up! haha. thats good. keep em coming

Aw, thank you Clare
Tbh, my depressing poems make me feel better

i know what u mean.

poetry is a great way to express emotions :')

i second this