Sonia's poems

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My poems :

Ruins Of Roses:

Here I stand, In the middle
Of the ruins of roses
Everything beautiful,
Is dead and gone
Every memory, faded
Life and death and separated 
By a very fine line
The same line 
That divides me
Somewhere in my mind
If you aren't here 
I'm a ghost, I walk all alone.
No one will see,The tears I cry.
They are hidden 
By the pain in my eyes
All i posses,Is one last breath
As I stand, In the ruins of roses.

Leonie wrote:
Btw, I have something for you

What?

¡sonia! wrote:

Leonie wrote:
Btw, I have something for you

What?

ATL thread
Btw,

Twisted thoughts:

Im lost in everyone's misinterpretation
Of how one becomes happy
I've watched the people I love the most
Join the tide, then drown in the tsunami.
Everyone's right in their own eyes
Their selfish wars are worth the fight 
All their wrongs seem so right 
When its the only thing they see in the light 
I'm not new to the tension 
Nor to the pained aggression 
That rips the faith out of my heart
Just like you have in the past
I'm not broken, just torn apart
By the many twisted thoughts
That surround me and seclude me
In a place of social rot
My lack of trust in battles fought
Have weakened me intensively 
My state of mind
Is all but pleasant and  of security 
The people that I thought I loved
Now in the army of the enemy 
Like before, I'll fight alone,
Until there's nothing left of me. 

All these words I cannot say
Shelter me from the light of day
The Walls made of lies
Burn my eyes
I'm stuck where I thought I'd never be
And I'm afraid of my reality 
The reality of you and me
My sacrifice and compromise
To make you happy, all in vain 
I've finally found what I've wanted 
But it isn't satisfying 
To know that I've built up these dreams
In this world of painful screams
To know that I'm in the arms
Of the wrong kind of love
All I wanted was you
And I waited, for as long as I could
Waiting for you to appear, to save me
To help me, to bring me to life
But you never came
I found your love
In a different heart
A heart I cannot accept
Your heart I cannot refuse
To others, I lie
But to you, 
Nothing but the truth 

i love your poems!

Why can't I +1 it more than once?

I'm running out of ways to express
How I really feel
I'm running out of time
To tell you that this is real
All this sudden passion, inside my heart
Is nothing but a result of my love
My love for you, like a hidden dream
Like a lost soul looking to scream
Like the sun rising in the darkness
Like the last angel in heaven 
Saving us from realities hell
I'd give it all if that would help
Help you realise, how long I wait
And how hard I try to hold my tears
To have you by my side
I'm inconsolable. Faith, unpredictable 
But I see it in you
Your love so special, so gentle, inexpressible 
I want to let go, of the lies I've told
That I'd never find someone to hold
I see my fantasies in you
But I need you to see me too

:')

I've spent so long being lost
Looking for a heart to love me
Looking for a place to be
Something different from my harsh reality 
Looking for hope, for perfection,
For a life, for passion 
For anything I'd give my life for
And for someone, that I'd willingly die for
Looking for a place to hide, 
And to let someone else swallow my pride.
Who we are is our strength and not a weakness.
Who we are cannot bear the harsh isolation.
I have tried, and often cried 
As I looked up into the skies, for a place for me
For a place to eternally be.
But that place is so far away, 
I've found the closest thing to the light of day
In your heart, in your smile, in your life.
Never go away. 

i love your poems

My life of dreams 
And yours of false reality 
Seem to blend so perfectly.
Your understanding of everything 
Is beyond me,
But I understand how you feel
And how you make me feel.
All my hidden memories
Packed away in a safe place 
To make room for your love
To fill the vacancy in my heart.
My life, in your hands 
Now it's too late to pretend.
I've built myself 
All around you,
Hoping that for once
I wouldn't fall and break 
I've crumbled in the past
But you've fixed my broken heart.
So many things are left unsaid,
When I let the moment pass.
So many things are best unsaid, 
When I'm afraid of exchanging
Your trust for your love.

It would kill me to let you go
But it would kill me even more
To wake up everyday to know
That I have lied to save my heart 
To save you from being torn apart 
To save myself the misery 
Of watching your heart break for me
But I've let my heart break
For a stranger, a stranger I love
I've let the pain take over
Until I've become completely numb 
Peacefully confused, by the truth 
By the love I receive 
And I love I give to you
You matter more than my own heart 
But my heart needs something more
More than dreams of you and me
More than nightmares of letting you go.

I don't know which way to go
I don't know what I want more
I Can't see a solution 
Buried under all the confusion 
Hidden between all my thoughts 
Dwelling where I feel lost 
I've got what I thought I'd never have
And I've lost what I never had.
The easy way out is far from here 
The time I had no doubts, 
Disappeared in the lost years 
When I would try to figure this out
Why do I try to figure it out?
When I know I just can't 
Find what I want.
Find a way to make the misery end  

In a world we don't know 
She lifts her hopes and let's them go.
So lost for so long 
Shes sick of being strong.
The losing battle never ends 
And it gets so tiring to try 
That every night she sits and cries 
Wondering why, why this life is this way 
Why she never gets a say, 
In what she wants and where to go
And why her dreams fall to the floor.
She works for something she doesn't know 
So confused by life going by too soon 
She doesn't want anything anymore
All she want is a place,
And a person who'll help her let go.
In hiding from the world
She can't take it anymore 
Why does she face everyday 
Like there's nowhere for her to go? 

It's so cold on this road to nowhere 
It's so cold inside my heart tonight
There's a chill in the air that's everywhere 
And im going nowhere 
This fight goes into the night 
But I'm losing it one more time
I'm losing the sense in my head
I'm losing the safety in my bed
I'm losing everything I worked for
And I feels like there's nothing to live for
The oceans an open door
Take me anywhere you want to go
Take to away, far from here
Take me where I'll never have to hear 
Anyone tell me that it's my fault 
That it's my war, that I'm alone
That I'm not like anyone and that no one likes me
Take me where I'll be safe 
Take me where I won't feel a thing 
Take me away with you 

Heres a poem I wrote, and Jesse edited :

Tell Me

I have nothing left to say,
I've yet to see a day,
Where you haven't taken the words out of my mouth,
Just to worsen my life of doubt.

Look at what you've done to me,
I wasn't suppose to be
Dependent on anybody
I was made to be with nobody.

A life for no one but me,
A life that I'll never see,
Because you stole it and broke it,
Why can't I live my life with you omit?

Every time you break my heart,
You pick up the pieces, 
To put us back to the start,
When you could make me feel decent.

Tell me what you want,
Tell me what you see
In every broken piece of me.

Tell me you won't leave,
Tell me I'll never have to see,
What I was making myself be.

Nothing I do is good enough for you
But in my head and in my heart 
I don't belong to you
I'll be alone, I don't care how you feel
I don't care about you at all
You break me and hurt me 
And desert me when I need you 
You'd let me fall without a though 
You'd let me go in the blink of an eye
When I leave you, and scream at you
Hoping you'll listen, you won't blink
You won't think before saying you don't need me
This time, I'm alive, I can say I don't need you
You think I'll come back, 
Come crawling back to you like I always do
But this time I don't need you
I don't want anything from you 
It's fine with me if you don't need me
It's fine with you that I can leave 
I'm never coming back to you again 

In a world where dreams have constructed my reality 
I began to open my eyes and see what you mean to me
To see what this life is supposed to be
To see how I waste happiness in misery
I see what I've become and who I've chosen to be
I see the light of a never ending black hole
The light you show me, the life you show me
The misery never ends, because that's my reality
And I've learnt to live with it, to hope against it
To dream that it won't become me
I've dreamt so long for a moment for me
A moment when I'll forget everybody 
Get lost in the beating of my own heart
Get lost in the memories of my own scars
Get lost in the image of a world with no pain
But dreams never come true for me 

this is really good, so sad and depressing...

so far no typos

Survivor of Violence wrote:this is really good, so sad and depressing...

so far no typos

Thanks Kate

That's good

You take advantage of the fact
That I never answer back 
I hold my tears back 
And try to get my life back on track
Forgive me, this isn't me
I don't know what's wrong
I've lost control, I've lost my soul 
I don't want this anymore 
I don't want anything 
To do with this life 
I'd give it up if I could, 
But I'd never take the easy way out
I'd want to give up, without a doubt 
But it isn't what I dreamt of
I was meant to be so much more
But now I've closed that door
I've decided nothing is worth it
And I can't do this anymore 

I think of the misery, of being lonely 
Then my mind wonders off to you and me
When I'm alone I'm surprisingly happy
Until I remember you and me
Then I suffer the nightmare 
Of not having you there
And I'm reminded that I'm still alone 
The walls of the room keep coming closer
And this life keeps getting darker
Longing for a road out of here 
When you'll finally realise that I need you 
When you'll finally give up the lies and need me too
Don't let me fall, like I have before 
Wondering if this is worth it anymore 
Promise me you won't let go
Because I don't wanna die anymore 
I don't want to forget this reality 
But I'm never going to let this dream go 
I don't ever want to be woken up 
from my dreams and my memories 
But now there's no where left to go 

Amazing :')

Splasher wrote:Amazing :')

Thank you Jesse

Why can't you see the obvious?
Why can't you see what you mean to me?
Why do you avoid the truth 
Does it hurt to wake up to reality?
I'm sick of the lies and feelings held back
Every time I avoid those three words myself 
It hurst like a knife in my chest
Are we waiting for a time that seems best?
Are you waiting for me to give in first?
Right now I don't care how 
I just need you to understand
That if I held this is anymore 
It would only take a toll 
Because I have something else to hold
But nothing nearly as perfect as you 
How much longer must I lie?
How much longer must I hide 
How much I really want you  

You set your heart on fire 
Just to watch it burn 
After all these years
How much longer must you yearn
For some sort of hope 
Buried beneath it all
You've sold your soul
For what you cannot own 
And now every memory 
Is a regret, indirectly 
Won't you ever tire
Of every liar, 
Out there, who says;
There's still hope for you 
Won't you ever tire 
Of every dire situation 
That you put yourself in 
The scenarios that you build
Look what you've done
You've given up the gun
Now nothing can save you 
From what you've done
There is nowhere
You can choose to run
Why'd you give up
When you should've fought
For what was there
The one thing that was yours 
Why'd you let go
At a time you could've done more
Enjoy your misery, far away from me.

sonia i'm not gonna post much posts like 'that's great! that's so awesome' cos it's just too obvious and boring

Survivor of Violence wrote:sonia i'm not gonna post much posts like 'that's great! that's so awesome' cos it's just too obvious and boring

Haha, thanks Kate

Walking on broken glass
Seeing nothings meant to last 
I'm picking up the pieces 
And healing the bruises 
To turn my life around 
This time I've fallen
And landed on the ground 
I've never been broken this way
Though I'm not unfamiliar to hurting this way
But this is the pain
Out of which there is gain
In the heart of the affliction 
The pain healed with motivation 
Wounds heal but scares remain
Scares that remind you of the pain
The pain that's thought me
What I should and shouldn't be
I won't give up
I won't take the easy way out
I am hurt, I am broken, 
But I swear 
I won't break again 

I think I've given you about 3 quarters of your rep. just in this thread